To have sociophobia, or, Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD). I told my therapist that I have been feeling very anxious or excited while at school, and at the end of the day i feel tired and drained and i don't feel like doing my homework. She then asked me, "When do you start feeling anxious, Ginger?" and i thought about, and i came to realize that it seems to be that where ever there are a lot of people, i get very tense and excited, and then she told me, " It's possible that you might have sociophobia". It will probably take a few more sessions before she actually figures out for sure if that's what the problem is.
Also, i'm finally getting over my fear of my crush. That's right people - i'm finally actually TALKING TO HIM. He'll give me this look like "you're srtange" whenever i show up, and he probably does think i'm crazy and weird, but guess what- he's right, i am crazy, figurtivly AND literally. He doesn't seem to mind me talking to him, though, in fact, he seems enjoy me being around, a little. But i'm not going to jump to conclusions - for all i actually know, he's probably just being nice.
To be honest with you guys, i feel kind of empty when i think about school. It seems that school has been getting more scary to me by the day........ it maybe apparent why, but, i just dont know. I guess i feel lonely.........